Tuesday, 28 September 2010

Would you have an affair??

I was watching Lorraine on ITV1 this morning and a feature really annoyed me. It was about a 'new' dating site for married people looking for affairs. There is a little bit about it on the website here

I am not married myself but I would honestly say that if I was a married woman I WOULD NOT even contemplate having an affair. Yes, you don't know the ins and outs of other peoples marriages but I think that someone that would do this clearly has no morals. If your marriage is that bad then get out of it!

I have used 'normal' dating sites before(if you can call them that) and have come across married men before. If they send me a message I usually tell them where I stand on the whole 'friends with benefits' issue and then go on to ask them how they can even do it? I don't understand??!!

I'm sure that there are many people that do use this kind of service but surely it's not going to end well is it? Are there husbands/wives that are happy to use this? Surely it would be better for all if they were even thinking about having an affair is to end the marriage first? How do their partners feel about them using a site like this? Or do they even know?

Hmmm,I'd like to hear your views on this as clearly I'm quite old fashioned and naive about the whole marriage/relationship thing...

Monday, 27 September 2010

Diet FAIL!

Hmm, I've had a pretty rubbish 3 weeks diet wise. To be honest I didn't manage to get back into it properly. I'm not in the 'zone' so to speak. AND I've put on 4lbs!!

On a plus note though, I have made some small changes in eating habits which I think,with a lot more effort, will be very beneficial to me.

And I also gave up smoking 3 weeks ago. I think that has contributed to the gain.

So I am going to continue to make small changes and see if I can keep going with them so I don't get overwhelmed with it all and give up.

I'm going to give crocheting a go too, to keep my hands busy ;)

Tuesday, 21 September 2010

Another award! ;)

Thanks so much to SarahR for my lovely 'Beautiful Blogger Award'. You can read Sarahs Blog here.

The rules are I have to write 7 unknown things about myself and then pass the award on to 5 other bloggers.

1. I cannot poach an egg. I've tried and tried but just cannot do it! I love poached eggs. Even looking at the picture below makes my mouth water. I've tried the whizzing round the water, adding a dash of vinegar etc etc, and it still comes out a total mess!

2. E.T gives me nightmares *shudder*. I can't even bear to put a picture on of it!! Eww, that long finger and the way its neck stretches. Yuck, yuck, YUCK!!!!

3. I love Soap&Glory products. The packaging, the smell, just everything about it. Soap&Glory makes me very happy!


4. I want to find my soulmate. I want to be with someone that makes me complete. Someone that will do anything for me as I would them. As the years go on I find myself wondering if it'll ever happen and feeling more dis-heartened. I'm getting used to the idea of being a smelly cat woman ;)

5. I love my Dyson. I'm not known for my housework skills, but hoovering is something I enjoy doing.

6. I love chocolate as much as I love cheese. I like the mild cheeses like brie, camembert, mild cheddar etc but I've also got a shameful addiction to Cheesestrings. Chocolate. I don't really need to say more do I?

7. I have a love/hate relationship with the internet. I love it because I've made so many great friends online and it's opened my whole world up but I also hate it because it has entrapped me in cyberspace and my real life seems to be dwindling. I feel I'm a much better online friend than a real one, which is really quite sad. Where I've gained new friends, I've also lost people. I've suffered highs and lows and even heartbreak. I wouldn't be without it though.

Right, my 5 bloggers are-

Di- http://www.tekkencat.co.uk/

Bernadeena- http://bernardeena.blogspot.com/

Ger- http://galwaygirl19.blogspot.com/

Lou- http://jamtartstopssmoking.blogspot.com/

ModestyBrown- http://www.modestybrown.com/

Friday, 17 September 2010

When did Friday nights get so dull?

Oh that's right, when I became old and boring!

I used to live for the weekend. Now it's the worst part of the week. Most of my friends are settled and married so I don't have many 'friends' to go out with these days. I find it quite depressing really. I feel a bit of an outsider, so to speak, as I'm the single one. Certain people have a problem with that.

 Oooo, don't go out with the single girl. She'll lead you astray.

No, not really. I'm a nice girl. I don't do leading astray. What's wrong with going out with your friends for a couple of drinks, single or not??

I am actually suffering quite badly today with a hangover. I went out with a married friend and had a blast. And now it's Friday night, I'm sat with feet up watching Coronation Street, and my son's not even here. This kind of night is when I wish I had a man to curl up on the sofa with...

Sunday, 12 September 2010

Ideas please people!

Right, from tomorrow I will set myself a 'challenge' to do. I don't mean anything like skydiving off the Transporter Bridge or anything, but something I can do that will make me feel better. Or just things that will put a smile on my face and make me laugh. Something that will distract me from being a miserable cow.

I have some ideas but they're pretty usual boring things, so I was hoping a few of you could send some ideas my way. If you're lucky I might post some photos of me doing some of them... ;)

Saturday, 11 September 2010

Why can't I do this??!!

Back on the wagon? Pfffft! The wagon well and truely left without me!! I've actually put on 3lbs in the last 2 weeks! I am now the heaviest I've ever been (appart from when I was heavily pregnant). The thing that bugs me most is that I can not control what I am eating. I just can't do it.

And this coming from someone that was anorexic for 7 and a half years...

Hard to imagine but I just didn't eat and exercised pretty much 7 days a week. It was a pretty fucked up time in my life and that was the thing I COULD control, my eating. My lowest weight was 5 and a half stone. I remember being discharged from hospital after attempted suicide and getting my stomach pumped. I remember standing looking in the mirror and thinking how great it was that I had an indented stomach and that I was so light in weight. I tried not to eat but my body just couldn't take it anymore. I lost control...

I started to eat again when I met my sons dad. I put on weight and was 8 and a half stone for years. Then I had my son. Since then the weight has been creeping on. He will be 6 at the end of the month. 6 years I have spent on fad diets, weight watchers, slimming pills, all sorts of crap and none of it has worked. I've lost a few pounds here and there but I hate how much I weigh. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing what I've become.

I want to be able to gain the control back again, not to the extent of an eating disorder, just to be 'normal'.